What should I do?　本文秘密ともに追記

Hi darling....

I really don’t know what to say.
Ha...I dont remember.....what day was it that day? Maybe Monday or Tuesday or someday...?Well it doesn’t matter.

I suddenly remembered that you are suffering from melancholia.

You went to "the hospital and the doctor said "Insomnia and melancholia."

Somehow I reacted to only insomnia....um....sorry for that...

Suddenly I remembered you have melancholia.

ha.........

I checked the list of melancholia’s symptom.
"yes，yes，yes....yes...conform to it，conform to it!"

"I lost 6kg"
"I feel like comitting suicide"
"I wanna cloak my life"
"I ve got lot’s of stress"
"I can hardly sleep well"

ha....

I wish I were with you.
If I were there.....I could comfort you and you could sleep like a log...right?You told me that before.When I am with you，and after having excercise，you can sleep very well.

But I am in my country.

Also，you don’t turn on your cell-phone.
You know what...?I called you last night...for the first time after I’ve got email from you.

My friend suggested me to send a letter.
Well...I dont know.
I dont know what to say，actually I’m perplexed.

I feel like as if my complaint were a has-been.

What are you doin’?

I dont know................I dont know.

I dont know what I can do.
I wanna be happy.That is all........

To be honest，I begun to despair of our relationship.
We are away from each other，you don’t contact me，actually you shut me down because of melancholia which is rooted from too much working.
You cannot quit job in any case.
If I were with you，I could do something...But...

I m not so strong that I cannot wait forever.